I think it's great that you know you need some help dealing with your emotions and anger. That's a huge thing to realize and be open to getting help.
If I'm understanding you correctly, you don't have a lot of money, you don't have health insurance, but you don't qualify for the state healthcare for people who fall within a certain low-income level?
OK, I googled Health Access Programs Card and got this: http://www.health-access.org/item.asp?id=206
That link informs you that the card is administered by this organization: http://www.familypact.org/en/Clients/what-is-family-pact.aspx I'm not sure how much use this organization and card will be to you. It seems mostly targeted toward preventing pregnancy or helping maintain a healthy pregnancy. If you click on "Clients" you'll see a drop-down of choices and they do have a heading for STIs, so they may be an option for any future testing or treatment (maybe you can see a doc to get a prescription for antivirals) you might need. Also, under the "Safe and Healthy" choice, they have links for domestic violence. I don't know that you've crossed that line, but if you either have or if you're hitting road blocks finding help otherwise, you could possibly contact one of those organizations and see if they can direct you to an appropriate place since presumably they are in the business of trying to assist people with anger management to reduce violence.
Are you enrolled in college? If so, usually there are some health services and definitely a counseling center on campus. I think the services are usually cheap or free for students. Also, if you are in college, you might be able to buy health insurance offered to the students. That might be affordable.
Whether or not you are in college, you can always check (presumably online or go to an office) with your county department of social services to see if there are any services you qualify for based on income level. I don't know your whole situation and whether or not you might need/qualify for other kinds of assistance. Just because you don't qualify for the state Medicaid coverage doesn't necessarily eliminate you from receiving other services. So that's a general suggestion if you need help with food or shelter or paying utility bills, etc. Also, they may have referrals to counselors or anger management groups.
I don't know what the setup is in your state, but I believe every county has to have a community mental health department, which sorta falls under the department of social services, but is usually its own entity and located in a separate physical location. Large counties often have more than one community mental health center and they accept people based on address, splitting up the county between the different offices. The community mental health center is your best option for receiving counseling when you don't have insurance. They would charge you on a sliding scale depending on your income. Usually a mental health center will offer groups as well as individual counseling with a therapist and psychiatrists would also be on staff to provide medication management when necessary (just psychotropic meds, not the antivirals or anything else).
OK, so I think your best bet is to see what your department of social services offers and go through whatever referrals or links, etc, they have methodically to see what is appropriate and useful for you. Oh, and they would also have the contact info. for the regular health department as well. I don't know if PP charges you on a sliding scale or if you can afford to go to a doc-in-a-box kind of place, but if those aren't good options, you could try the health department to get a prescription for antivirals. And, yes, they are a prescription medication, so you do have to have an actual prescription. Usually if someone has a regular primary care doc or whatever, they will just write a year's supply (like a 90 day supply with 3 refills) for you. You shouldn't need to go in all the time to keep up the meds if you're using them for suppression. But a doctor does have to see you roughly annually to continue prescribing anything. If you go to one of these kind of clinics, I don't know if they get weird about long-term prescriptions. But I'd think they could give you a decent supply hopefully.
Walmart has sort of a weird thing going, but it is pretty cheap. The problem is, they refuse to comprehend that the standard suppressive dose for Acyclovir is 400 mg twice daily. They will give you a "month's" worth of Acyclovir for $4, but they consider that to be 30 of the 200 mg pills, which is not a dose for ANY treatment with Acylovir. I think they will give you 90 pills for $10. So if you don't mind playing their game and doing the math and swallowing extra pills, you can get a certain amount of suppression pretty cheap. Obviously you can call them to see just what they'd charge you for a normal 400 mg prescription. I would suggest you ask the pharmacy about this and figure out which way is cheapest or balances reasonable convenience with a price you can afford--and do this BEFORE you go see the doctor. Because if you need a weird prescription (like, for the 200 mg pills) you will need to explain to the doctor why you want it written that way and ask them nicely to please do *this* so that you can afford it. Then READ THE PRESCRIPTION before you leave to make sure it's what you asked for. Doctors don't always listen or they get distracted and go on autopilot and then will write the damn prescription another way. It's quicker to fix right on the spot which is why you need to read it before you leave.
OK, about your testing. Unless you specifically asked to be tested for Herpes in the past, or actually SAW test results for HSV, there's still a damn good chance you were never tested for it. Or if you were, frankly, it's luck of the draw if you had a doctor who had a clue and actually ordered the correct test. So, maybe you were fortunate and really were properly tested and negative in the past or maybe not.
As for your current result, I'm guessing it's the culture result since it says "slide" plus it doesn't say IgG anywhere. I've never seen culture results before...so this is saying the culture was negative? I'm not understanding the "positive A (negative)" thing. You also said they did a blood test. Do they have that result back? That should be a type-specific IgG blood test, ideally. They can do a combined IgG test and at least it would say negative or positive, but if it were positive, you wouldn't know if that meant positive for Type I AND Type II or just one of them. If the blood test is an IgM test, that's worthless, the wrong test. I just skimmed over your previous posts and you had a visual diagnosis pending the test results. Did they tell you this result was positive? If this is a new infection for you, your blood test will likely be negative since it can take up to 16 weeks to develop the antibodies the blood test is looking for.
We obviously can't know what your ex was thinking when she slept with you. As I already said, some doctors are idiots. She might have had symptoms and happily believed a doctor who might have said it WAS a "girly problem". Often an outbreak can look like a yeast infection in a woman. Now (and for future reference), if a girl is EVER being treated for any vaginal issues, she really shouldn't be having sex until it's cleared up. And that's for BOTH of your health. Some non-STD infections can be transmitted to a male partner and it just delays curing things.
Clearly the two of you had some problems or you wouldn't have been broken up in the first place. Hindsight is 20/20, but it was a HUGE red flag when she was sketchy about what she'd been up to while you all were on a break. Now, I can see that someone may choose to keep details off limits since you all weren't seeing each other at the time. I don't really think it's expecting too much to get a straight answer to "did you have sex with anyone else" though. But, I'm guessing your temper isn't a brand new thing, so maybe she was afraid you'd grill her about the details or judge her for "sleazing around" or whatever the term was that you used. And she might have been correct that your reaction wouldn't have been pretty. That would have been HER red flag to rethink getting back with you. At any rate, it seems clear that both of you all had some issues contributing to why your relationship wasn't working. Also, since she was being dodgy about her activities away from you, the better reaction from you would have been to say, OK, we don't have to talk about it, but I think we should both get STD testing done before we sleep together again. I know you wanted to trust her, but you already KNEW she wasn't being all that straight with you. Another missed red flag. And again, for future reference, if you are concerned about other STDs, the best course of action is to discuss this stuff with a potential partner and for both of you all to test and get copies of results and share them.
OK, so just from that tiny snapshot of your interactions with her, we know you both were a bit immature and you each have your own stuff contributing to the problem. I'm sorry to say, but closure is often a pipe dream. Everybody wants it. Been there, done that, myself. Or, lol, been there, tried to get that, and DIDN'T get that. It's pretty unusual to get closure because the nature of a break-up is that the other person probably doesn't want to talk to you or do anything nice/helpful for you and even if she purported to want to give you closure, whatever she told you would probably be a lie or at least not the real truth. Now, I think there's always a (slim) chance that if you got yourself into counseling, did some work there, and then contacted her to let her know you were serious about addressing your anger issues, *maybe* she would be willing to attend a session with you to discuss what happened. But even if she did, you'd still have to know that you might never be satisfied with whatever she says.
OK, I've written an entire dissertation here, lol. If I missed anything crucial or you have any other questions, lemme know.
Hang in there.