...because I never thought I'd be put in this position.
Embarrassment, loneliness and unhappiness are my best friends right now. Not that I'm a depressing person to be around - of course I'm still a very sociable, happy and interesting guy, but I feel so out of place after being put in this position.
Okay, so I haven't been diagnosed YET, but I'm positive it's HSVII. White, hurtful bumps on my genitals that FREAKING KILL when I even rub it on my leg. They're so painful, especially in the shower and this is all a surprise to me. I was originally diagnosed with molluscum contagiosum and they're nothing. In fact, the doctor removed them with ease and they were gone within weeks. But then rash-like red spots started appearing on my genitals and BAM they started killing me and become white, blotchy spots. It looked awful and I was absolutely devastated. Went back to the doctor, he looked at them and gave me an "uh-oh" face that made me cringe. He'd mistaken them for molluscum by accident then when they turned into full blown herpes (I HATE THAT WORD) he said I need to be tested for HSVII.
The results will be in by next Wednesday...
I feel like an ass hole. A 20-year-old good-looking guy that NO ONE would expect to have this STI and I need to go back to college in 2 weeks. I have a huge social circle both at home and at college. I work at a restaurant as a host and every waitress absolutely LOVES me and I've made probably 25-50 more friends this summer alone. I hate that this whole thing is making me feel inferior and not want to have sex. The molluscum were there for about 4 months and I didn't have sex that entire time. NOW THIS?!?
That's my story, I guess. Or whatever you want to call it.
I plan on telling no one (except family, of course) about my "condition" but I had a sex question...
I read that if I had sex (with no OB) and wore a condom, that there's only a 1% chance of passing on this infection.
I plan on having sex in college but don't want to tell anyone that I have this. How should I proceed? Any advice on the whole sex thing? I just feel like I'll never have good sex again. I wouldn't even like a girl go down on me even without OBs because that's too risky of her getting HSVI.
I hate this.